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Tuesday, December 29, 2009, 12:31:00 AM
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Nic says: " My god, he would've just shut up, but can't believe he's using such a cheap ass tactic."

Feels good to have the whole world against you, innit? :)
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Thanks Nic.

For that conversation. :)

Again, I gained insight.

We should definitely talk again sometime.

That is, if you want to. :)
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All I needed, was someone there to tell me what I needed to hear.

But I wonder if I'm truly happier this way.

One thing, I would love to see you suffer.

But I don't want to make myself suffer.

I can be totally drunk and still totally comprehend what you put up there.

Honestly, I don't know what I'm trying to prove.

I baffle myself sometimes.
* * *

Many things have changed around here since you've been gone.

So don't fucking assume that I'm the same person whom you thought you knew.
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I never realised how far I've come on this road of self-healing.

I'm at a much better place than I was before.

Maybe I should thank you for how you treated me like shit.

You made me feel dirty.

But it opened my eyes to many things.
* * *

I'm getting better at this.

Or maybe you were just easy.

But still, I'm kinda proud of myself. :)

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Yes, I still do think of you sometimes.

I'm upset at how things turned out between us.

I still want you in my life.

But I don't know how I should start.

I'm afraid that by talking to you, I'd make things worse instead.

And the fact that my name isn't there any longer, appalls and saddens me at the same time.

I fear that talking to you might make you break.

And that's the last thing I want to happen.

But I also know how you hate when people make assumptions.

So I'm not going to make any.

I wonder how you're doing though...

Oh, to hell with this.

I'll take the first step.

The rest, is up to you.

After all, it takes two to tango.

I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
* * *

I've had my fair share of fair-weathered friends.

But through this, I've also discovered who my true friends are.

And they will be the certain few whom I refuse to lose contact with.

People who truly matter to me, will forever be in my heart. :)
* * *

You didn't promise me outright.

And it wasn't too much to ask of you.

It wouldn't even hurt you, for goodness sake!

Well now I see what I am to you.
* * *

It's just all wrong.

Come on, powers that be.

Give me someone new to crush on!

And this time, it better be real.
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You're not the one I hoped for.